Hey Lovelies!
At the age of 22 I found myself unexpectedly pregnant. Craptastic! Throughout my entire pregnancy, I thought about all the things that I would miss once my baby arrived. I mourned the lost of my social life like crazy. I thought it was the one thing that I would miss the most. Turns out... it's not! I love my Aiden to pieces, but I gotta be honest on this little place and space on the web.
I miss my free time and my "me time" the most.
I'm sure you lovelies can relate to the fact that you never EVER get a time-out or a break from Motherhood. Even when Aiden is napping, my mind is racing with things that I need to do, want to do, forgot to do, will never do...
Gone are the days when I could just sit around on a Saturday afternoon and do absolutely NOTHING. Like, I can't simply sit around and read a magazine to catch up on my "current events" aka celebrity gossip, SLEEP, or watch an entire season of Sex and the City or Law & Order: SVU while eating five gigantic sugar cookies (love 'em!). Nope. Can't do that. Not without explaining all the sex talk, rapes, and cussing to my toddler. And what if I just wanted to get up and go... anywhere? Nope. Can't do that either. Not without a nanny anyway.
All the parenting books and magazines and coaches out there recommend that mommies hire a nanny for reasons just like this one. But I'm a poor grad student, gosh darn-it. I can't afford a nanny!
Most days I'm perfectly fine and feel extremely blessed with my life. But every once in a while, I think about those pre-baby days when I had my free time, my "me-time." These are the days when I get Aiden to bed a half an hour earlier. And I don't feel guilty about it one bit.
Smooches,
SweetAl
oh wow! that's why it pays to do research or maybe not... reading all the young mom blogs makes me realise that i'm still selfish about my time, can't decide if i'm letting the birth control go or not...
ReplyDeleteI think this is something that no one can quite explain or emphasize enough prior to having a child. They are simply all consuming. As you said, we love them to pieces, but the freedom to do anything that you desire, even if that's absolutely doing NOTHING, is gone, gone, gone! And, I miss the silence.
ReplyDeleteOh yes! Thanks so much for the comments... and honesty guys! It's absolutely true and we need to talk about it more. Love the discussion.
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